Poetry4Me

Last Night I had me a party
It lasted too long
And wasn’t any fun
It was just plain wrong

The guest list was longer
Than it was supposed to be
Usually this kind of party
Has but one guest, ME

I brought you into the party
Dragging you along
Opening my mouth
Singing my swan song

I was ready to leave
And never come back
Don’t know where I’d go
Don’t really know Jack

I said some things
Better left unsaid
Spent much of the night
Wishing I was dead

Then I typed you the letter
Looking to explain
Raised more anger in you
Caused you more pain

It’s time to move on
Put this behind us
One day we may look back
And wonder what was the fuss

My pity party is now closed!

8/23/08

Life is going better
Things are falling into place
Moments show great promise
Smiles returning to my face

Yet struggles still survive
Obstacles in the way
Always trying to decide
Exactly what to say

I must share my thoughts
Let you know how I feel
Opening my soul
Helping us heal

Love doesn’t waver
It grows ever stronger
No matter what’s happening
Can I wait any longer

Letting God’s Will be done
He will provide me guidance
To see the harvest
I must still have Patience

8/20/08

Confusing
Conflicting
Feelings running through

Choices
Decisions
Making up your mind

Rebelling
Smoking
Having a couple of drinks

Inhibitions
Desires
Making a choice

Passion
Lust
Afraid you crossed the line

Concern
Mislead?
No delusions

Regret?
Remorse?
Glad to be of service

Happiness
Wonder
Desire to see you happy

Nothing
Changed
During one night of passion

8/16/08

You continue to grow
Getting stronger and sure
Wanting to get it right
So you can endure

Cold as ice at times
Yet your heart warms through
Life’s struggles are
Still hard on you

Through work and through play
You are in control
Changing your life
Hardening your soul

You say you’re a survivor now
Needing to keep yourself secure
From the pain in the world
Your sanity to insure

Taking charge of your life
Decisions are now your own
Doing what YOU want
Together or alone

Before you make yourself
Too callous and cold
Remember the wonders
HE has made to behold

Friends and family stand firm
To help ease your aching
With loving eyes we are
Watching and waiting

8/13/08

I write these poems
To share how I feel
To keep the promise
To make me real

No longer can I
Keep everything in
Not letting others know
Was my major sin

Communication and trust
Were always the key
Not wanting to burden
I kept it all within me

Now I have changed
Ready to share
ALL of my life
With those who care

I would rather talk
Say these things out loud
To you if you’d listen
A silver lining in the cloud

8/10/08