Pity Party
Last Night I had me a party
It lasted too long
And wasn’t any fun
It was just plain wrong
The guest list was longer
Than it was supposed to be
Usually this kind of party
Has but one guest, ME
I brought you into the party
Dragging you along
Opening my mouth
Singing my swan song
I was ready to leave
And never come back
Don’t know where I’d go
Don’t really know Jack
I said some things
Better left unsaid
Spent much of the night
Wishing I was dead
Then I typed you the letter
Looking to explain
Raised more anger in you
Caused you more pain
It’s time to move on
Put this behind us
One day we may look back
And wonder what was the fuss
My pity party is now closed!
8/23/08
Patience
Life is going better
Things are falling into place
Moments show great promise
Smiles returning to my face
Yet struggles still survive
Obstacles in the way
Always trying to decide
Exactly what to say
I must share my thoughts
Let you know how I feel
Opening my soul
Helping us heal
Love doesn’t waver
It grows ever stronger
No matter what’s happening
Can I wait any longer
Letting God’s Will be done
He will provide me guidance
To see the harvest
I must still have Patience
8/20/08
One Night of Passion
Confusing
Conflicting
Feelings running through
Choices
Decisions
Making up your mind
Rebelling
Smoking
Having a couple of drinks
Inhibitions
Desires
Making a choice
Passion
Lust
Afraid you crossed the line
Concern
Mislead?
No delusions
Regret?
Remorse?
Glad to be of service
Happiness
Wonder
Desire to see you happy
Nothing
Changed
During one night of passion
8/16/08
Watching and Waiting
You continue to grow
Getting stronger and sure
Wanting to get it right
So you can endure
Cold as ice at times
Yet your heart warms through
Life’s struggles are
Still hard on you
Through work and through play
You are in control
Changing your life
Hardening your soul
You say you’re a survivor now
Needing to keep yourself secure
From the pain in the world
Your sanity to insure
Taking charge of your life
Decisions are now your own
Doing what YOU want
Together or alone
Before you make yourself
Too callous and cold
Remember the wonders
HE has made to behold
Friends and family stand firm
To help ease your aching
With loving eyes we are
Watching and waiting
8/13/08
Why I Write
I write these poems
To share how I feel
To keep the promise
To make me real
No longer can I
Keep everything in
Not letting others know
Was my major sin
Communication and trust
Were always the key
Not wanting to burden
I kept it all within me
Now I have changed
Ready to share
ALL of my life
With those who care
I would rather talk
Say these things out loud
To you if you’d listen
A silver lining in the cloud
8/10/08
